My Life...

I have never doubted whether what I feel for you is anything but love. I have such strong faith, such conviction that what I feel will someday be reciprocated. I know, and believe that if one stay on the path shown by Him, he would reward us for our patience, if not in this world then in the next. Should our dreams and desires not get fulfilled, then on that day, if He deem us worthy then all our dreams and our inner most desires shall come true.

I know I am being selfish and impatient but at times when I feel the lowest of low, when I hit rock bottom, I compare myself with an apple...

Before you came into my life, I was whole. Whatever the shape, whatever the flavour may be. I was complete.

Then you came along and turned my world upside down. All that I knew and was so sure of vanished into thin air like the mist at the first touch of the morning sun. I now feel like a half eaten apple... hollow and empty on the inside, incomplete without other pieces. But the pieces have been bitten off and can never be replaced.

I contemplate a little further and realise... May be this is my purpose in life. To be eaten to my core so that the seeds within are dispered into rich fertile soil... so that it may germinate and grow into a beautiful tree of its own and bear the sweet fruit from it.

My life might have been in one piece before but now I know I am pure and clean on the inside. I may not be complete or whole now, buut we'll be together one day, Insha Allah and on that day I'll be whole again but in a good way.

Take care and thank you for being you. Thank you for taking the first bite off of me...